Just out of college
Just out of college, I find myself in an endless struggle but the only thing I don't know is what is this struggle against. Is it a struggle to prove myself, to create a niche for myself or just a struggle because everybody around me is doing so?
Just out of college, I find myself, as an unknown face in the multitude of such other unknown faces, with every face trying to find a semblance of a long forgotten acquitance in other face.
Just out of college, I find suddenly find myself as a person who is responsible for all the decisions that I take, a person who has a choice of being as proactive as I want to be or as lethargic as I can be. This choice decides my "growth" , though the definition of this term becomes more hazy and ambiguous. Is my definition alone decides my "growth" or do I have an urge to see a reflection of it in the eyes of others. How many times, one has to give up his/her dream, just for that tiniest glint of the approval in the eyes of others. I am not sure whether it's even worth it.
Just out of college, I stand as an individual who has, for long, taken enough from the environment around, and now it's her turn to contribute back. A big task but a monotonous one too, for I find myself groping and fumbling for the answer to "How" or "Why me, so soon".
Just of out college, I find myself drawn in a weirdly assorted clout, where the only thing that matter is the idea-- devoid of the external embellishments that a person tries to adorn himself with. But this gives me a motivation to get up every day and say to myself " Today I have some work to do, I can make some difference to the world today".
In short, just out of college, I find myself in a abysmal chaos, where many definitions need to be redefined, much purpose has to be found in living and a path has to carved out -- which may not be the best path, but which definitely would be MY PATH.
PS: Just out of college I suddenly find writing a very crappy blog entry where I cannot do justice to my state of mind or probably it is not meant to be justified -- who knows!
Just out of college, I find myself, as an unknown face in the multitude of such other unknown faces, with every face trying to find a semblance of a long forgotten acquitance in other face.
Just out of college, I find suddenly find myself as a person who is responsible for all the decisions that I take, a person who has a choice of being as proactive as I want to be or as lethargic as I can be. This choice decides my "growth" , though the definition of this term becomes more hazy and ambiguous. Is my definition alone decides my "growth" or do I have an urge to see a reflection of it in the eyes of others. How many times, one has to give up his/her dream, just for that tiniest glint of the approval in the eyes of others. I am not sure whether it's even worth it.
Just out of college, I stand as an individual who has, for long, taken enough from the environment around, and now it's her turn to contribute back. A big task but a monotonous one too, for I find myself groping and fumbling for the answer to "How" or "Why me, so soon".
Just of out college, I find myself drawn in a weirdly assorted clout, where the only thing that matter is the idea-- devoid of the external embellishments that a person tries to adorn himself with. But this gives me a motivation to get up every day and say to myself " Today I have some work to do, I can make some difference to the world today".
In short, just out of college, I find myself in a abysmal chaos, where many definitions need to be redefined, much purpose has to be found in living and a path has to carved out -- which may not be the best path, but which definitely would be MY PATH.
PS: Just out of college I suddenly find writing a very crappy blog entry where I cannot do justice to my state of mind or probably it is not meant to be justified -- who knows!
posted by Neha Garg at 10/10/2007 03:55:00 PM
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